My days lately...

When we first moved, I stayed busy arranging our home. Then I focused a good deal of time on being a wife and being domestic. Then I got sick. Then, well, I got bored.

I got into a routine with laundry and shopping, but that didn't fill my days. I went through times of feeling useless and struggled with motivation.

Honestly, I'd had a similar struggle after my time volunteering at a previous church ended. Getting the house ready to sell was a welcome job after not having much to do for 6 months.

Volunteering at the previous church was always a mixed bag for me. For a long time, I enjoyed it. When I was allowed, it gave me opportunities to serve the church in unique ways and in ways that people rarely knew.

There were multiple reasons for me being there, most importantly to protect me from my own depression/anxiety when it was very severe. There were times I fought against that.

It was also an emotional roller coaster for me. There was so much drama, so much self inflicted struggle within the office. I won't go into details, but I will say it was tough at times. It was also my first time to see the good, bad and ugly of the church. I was a very immature christian and didn't know how to process what I saw from the members and the general public. I didn't know then the correct ways to handle the things that felt wrong to me.

All that said, I wouldn't change those three and a half years. I developed some amazing relationships, learned a lot and developed a desire to serve the church. Ultimately, it taught me to love the church body, the good, bad and the ugly.

So, my husband shared with our new minister about my experience volunteering in the church office and my desire to do something.

Over the past few months, that has led to an opportunity to volunteer in our new church several hours a week.

It's so nice to have something to do in addition to being a housewife. More importantly, it's giving me an opportunity to serve the church in ways that aren't obvious. I enjoy giving my time to this church and am so thankful.

When school starts in two months, things may change a little. I hope to balance everything, but I shouldn't get bored.

I'm so very thankful that my husband heard my heart and was proactive in helping me fight my boredom.